Life isn't fair

I heard that my fair share of times when I was a kid. I would always respond with "well it's not fair that life's not fair!' At that age my unfairness was my sister getting the top bunk, not being able to go some place I wanted to go, not being able to get the dog I wanted or some other petty thing. As I entered adulthood it became all too familiar how truly unfair life was. Unfairness is parents having to bury their child after watching him fight a losing battle with cancer, a loving couple eager to have a baby of their own but struggling with infertility while a crack head is having her 9th baby and only God knows who the daddy is or the loving husband and father who wants to help his sick brother with a bad liver by giving him a part of his and then not making it through recovery while the man down the street is willingly killing his liver with alcohol. That is unfairness and yes it isn't fair that life's not fair. I'm not too sure where I am going with this post. I don't want it to be something bad or depressing. I was following the blog of the young father/husband who gave his liver to his brother and just found out he had died. So of course it got me thinking about life. I have had my fair share of I guess "jealousy" about other people's life. Like why can't I be that skinny without even trying, why did that guy win the lottery when he already has a ton of money or everything falls in to place perfectly for her why can't it for me? You know the normal stuff. But lately I realized that it left a weight on my chest to think and fell that. My time was consumed with all the things that were "going wrong" that I didn't see all the things that are going right. I'm healthy, my husband's healthy and he loves me and our son more than anything. I have an amazing little boy and the best family and friends. We struggle from time to time but I have never been worried and God has always provided for us. Once I saw this I stopped worrying about what other people have and just focused on what I have and let me tell you, it has been great. I feel like I need to honor those who life is in the not fair part right now and not take my fairness for granted.

Ok I promise my next post won't be so serious! =)